Tuesday, June 24, 2008
O's coming... yet i do not have the motivation to start studying.. zzz.. my maths.. seriously i jus don care a heck sometimes.. thinking of the stress makes me wanna yell the whole day/cry the whole day/slack the whole day.... what's happening to me?? my spiritual walk with christ aint going well too.. seems like i totally lost control over my life.. im like a lifeless soul with jus my body there..==.. i cant get myself to study/pray/do quiet time.. i jus feel like using the com when i wake up all the way until i go to sleep in the wee hours.. and continuing the routine over and over again.. "y shld i give a heck?' sometimes i ask myself.. but once i think about being able to study well, get into biomedical, it makes me wanna study... yet as soon as a question i do not understand/do not noe how to do, i jus plain give up.. and i start slacking again.. is there a potion out there that will make me be able to study?? i wanna grow more in christ too.. but i jus seem to be walking on the spot, while God is infront.. i jus don have the energy to continue walking, neither do i feel like i wanna go backwards.. im getting desperate...........
3:25 AM
